Death. I know a bit about that subject. I have experienced it in different forms in my life. It might seem odd to you that I start out an article about our greatest resource Love, on death. When I was only around two years old, I experienced death of my body from having a very high fever that doctors believe now contributed to two of my heart valves being damaged. I know my parents were putting me in ice baths to try to get the fever down. I know they thought I was doing better and put me in my crib. I can remember looking up to see six women, dressed in white, coming through my window and my curtains. My curtains had little children hand prints on them in all the primary colors. These women picked me up and took me right through the curtains with them. I remember going feet first, and I could see stars going by. I could feel air moving my hair. That is when I realized I was in adult form. They were taking me toward a light. It just got brighter and brighter until we were actually in the light. I was asked whether or not I would like to come home, to live in the place of light, or to go back to earth as I had not finished my journey in school there. But it was totally up to me. I was allowed to walk around as I made my decision. The beauty on the other side is so hard to describe. It is not some fluffy cloud place. It is a place so much like here, but the colors are more vibrant and there are more colors there than we have on earth. I have come to understand now that that has to do more with the rods in our eyes can only see this range of colors here. There is a force there so incredibly strong that surrounds and permeates your very core. The power, the omnipotence…the creative channel for all life..What is it that rules the universes? What form of energy or power can engineer solar systems and at the same time can bring into our existence something so wonderfully exquisite as a baby giggle? Those of you who have experienced going back home and then making the choice to come back here to live out your divine plan, you know. We know. That energy, that dynamism that brings life to all forms is Love. Just think about that for a moment…What is that feeling, this wave of energy, and how strong is it when you think about how much you love your child? Your spouse? Your family? Even your pets? How would you describe to someone who had not yet experienced love what it feels like? How strong it is. How it permeates your very Being. And permeate it does.
Scientist have found that by looking into the smallest particle, a quark, they find space. We are made up of atoms and atoms are 99.9% space. Atoms are the building blocks of the material world, or what scientist call ” matter”. Every single object is composed of atoms. The human body is made from 10 followed by 27 zeros of atoms. So what does that mean? It means we are 99% space! What is in that space? Energy! What is the Energy that is used to create life? Love! Now this is a subject I will love to go into at another time, but suffice to say “We are Love!”
So..why talk about death? Because most of us walk around half asleep, and dwell in fear, which causes pain so much of the time. I will tell you what…If you want to know what is really important in life, look death in the face. Have someone tell you that you have just a few months to live and that will wake you up to what is really important in your life! You will be thinking about those you love. You don’t need to be at death’s door to understand this. To live life to our fullest here, we have to recognize and allow the force of all love to move freely within us, around us, to breathe it in and out. But life here is not easy. We do and will have pain here. Pain is an interesting concept all it’s own. What is it? We all can think easily what physical pain is like…but what of emotional pain. How would you describe it? I have been through a lot of physical, emotional and mental pain in my life. I can tell you what happens when it goes beyond what you can handle…you go numb.. I have learned that this can just happen to me, and that’s not really good because I am not in charge and really no learning comes from that. Now I have learned to accept the pain. I open my heart to it. I pull it in. Analyze it. Feel it as deeply as I can. Only in feeling it and knowing it intimately will I be able to make a change with it. It is then a transformation begins to take place. I feel myself surrounded by peace and light. But this is only possible if I open my heart and accept it. I already know the base is going to be some kind of fear..Just what is this thing I am feeling anyway? This goes for any kind of pain. What can I learn from it? To do that, you have to stop resisting the pain. You allow it. You experience it fully. You invite it in and then you can step back and really look at it. Only by excepting it do we have any power over it. Only by study, prayer and meditation will we find the base fear, the energy that started it in the first place. Unfortunately I, like usual, have had to learn things the hard way.
The pain I want to talk about right now is emotional and mental. What I have done most of my life in response to that type of pain is to shut down. Thankfully I have learned and am learning better..Oh boy was I an expert, I would have to say, at covering my heart. I could build walls that no type of weapon could ever even hope to penetrate. I could build them fast too! If I felt threatened, especially if I felt you were not loving me, you were judging me, or trying to humiliate me…My walls could go up in nano second time! You would have had no doubt that you were shut out. I could put up a strong enough and big enough wall that for all purposes you might as well have been dead! I was good! I wish it were only me that could perform such a feat. Sadly, this is how most of us live. What happened next is that I could not give the love I wanted to give to those I love the most. It was not possible with a heart that was so barricaded. I have also learned that when we close down, we will always be in some form of suffering.
What I have learned is that the strength of pain in all its many forms pales in comparison to the strength of love I can bring into my life living with a heart wide open. There is no mistake about it. But you have to be a warrior. You have to be brave to live like this, to face your fears, to face all of what our minds think are death. All the barbs and little hurts. All the rejections and attacks upon us personally. All the loss… Still…We have the complete and utter power within each and every one of us to do just that. To stay open to love is a brave and courageous act!
It is also a choice… Every second of every day we are either open to life and all the experiences it can bring us, or we are living shut behind some wall of protection we THINK brings us more safety and happiness. This is such a falsehood.
A bigger lie could hardly be told. Those feelings of love we all have and give are everything! Those beautiful waves of energy flow through, around, and are constantly part of us! When you allow your e-motions (energy in motion) to just BE… When you live with your heart wide open, you can not BUT have your dreams come to life! When we stay closed and surrounded by fear, we are just barely living. It is our choice to make. Stay open to life, to love, to pain and have the most wonderful, extraordinary experiences…Or succumb to fear and live our short lives here half asleep to all the wonder the universe would lovingly and happily hand to us on a silver platter.
There are so many reasons to want to stay covered up. Take a big breath. Now think of a time when you were little that you were hurt and scared. People were much bigger than you and you had no power to make anything better. Look at that child. That child learned to hide. That child learned that the world is not a safe place. That child learned that he or she had to take care of them-self for no one else was there to help. That child felt alone. What we all naturally do is build a wall to keep the boogy man out. The problem is, many of these walls we erected are still there. Not only that, many of the decisions we make today can be influenced by that hurt child. I can teach you how to heal that child. How to take that child and give them the love and safety they have waited all these years for. If we do not take down the walls and do some repair work, we will not be awake enough to see that that advice is very inaccurate. We came here to learn. We came here to have these tough experiences. The wonderful truth is that we can have these times to grow and learn by, take our gifts, and then heal and grow stronger in the process. We are all warriors at heart. We can do this.
We can make the choice to live in love. If you are waiting for something to happen to make your life better, you are suffering. You are suffering and all for not. You and I have the power right now this second to feel what ever it is you thought you would feel when you have acquired your supposed life changing goal. All the love we could ever feel exists in us all the time. All the happiness. All the safety… You are just living in too much fear to allow it. The opposite to love is not hate. It is fear.
We are either giving out love or we are giving out pain all the time. We are personally responsible for the ripple affects that flow from our Being. We have so much power! We can walk into a room and just with our eyes give out the energy that will either lift up and give of the goodness of ourselves to others and see them respond with happiness…or we can walk into a room and just with our eyes emit such lower energy as to bring everyone in the room into a place of some kind of fear. We do it all the time. Our every act will either inspire others to open up and receive love or shut down and do some more building. That is one of the biggest reasons we are on this earth in this school isn’t it? To learn to choose Love!
What would your life be like if you were to choose to live it fearlessly? To be the warrior that you are? To take on Fear in all of it’s ugly disguises. At first your body will immediately go into survival mode. Your nightmares will be in your face. The great truth though, is that you and I are infinitely stronger than any fear we allow in. Love has no equal in strength. We are made of love. It is our choice to win the fight or just give in. That is the only way Fear can win. By default. Many times we have just to shed light on the fear and look at it with the power of truth and it dissipates like fog in the light of the sun. It is really your own mind that will not release the hold on them. It takes so much of our energy to keep stuffing those fears back into the dark boxes of the mind. Aren’t you getting tired? Warrior! Be who you really are! You are the true definition of strength and bravery! So more so when two or more are together! If you need help at first, get it! So eternal one, brave one….. What dreams are there just waiting for you to live openly? What could you accomplish in your life? What of your true destiny are you blocking when you exist here living a life permeated with fear? What could come into your life? What would you realize is already here if you would but learn to live with your heart wide open?
There is no stronger force in the universe. If you doubt that, tell me something stronger than the love you have for your family and friends? Today I extol and give honor to the force called love. It is wonderful to celebrate the power of this force that brings life to all. To pay tribute to the very thing that holds even our bodies together. To honor, if not with a bit of wonderment and awe, that such a powerful force not only resides within us, but that we have complete access to use that force to bring all we could ever dream or imagine to fruition in our lives. We have only to be brave enough to be the warriors we are. We need to stand strong and tear down the walls of fear and accept this most wonderful gift..this thing called Love.
To love someone deeply gives you strength. Being loved by someone deeply gives you courage.
~ Lao Tzu